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[deadelfwalking]

 

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"Leave a message, if you must."

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[legal_eagle]

Okay, then what were you saying "no" to?

[deadelfwalking]

I don't know why you've spoken to me now. I know neither your true intent nor your motivation. But your words were too fiery and spoken with too much conviction for me to accept this as sincere. You are not someone who speaks without deliberation. You meant what you said. And how you said it.

[legal_eagle]

One for three. I meant what I said, but I was out of line in how aggressively I went after you.

[The rustle of a shrug.]

And I speak without deliberation all the time. Though I'm flattered that you actually think of me as calculating.

[deadelfwalking]

It is clear to me that you do specific things with the intent of specific outcomes. Perhaps that is calculation. In any case, it's what I've observed.

[legal_eagle]

Aw, stop, you talking about me's gonna give me a big head. So you think, what, I'm talking to you with ulterior motives?

[deadelfwalking]

I think that you are hoping for a specific outcome. I cannot say what.

[legal_eagle]

You can't say what because there isn't one. I mean, think logically about what even could come from me apologizing. There's not much.

[deadelfwalking]

You are correct. Nothing will come of it. It has no meaning, and no substance. You are apologizing over semantics. Not viewpoint.

[legal_eagle]

I'm apologizing because I was rude and mistreated you. Take it or leave it. I don't much care either way.

[deadelfwalking]

Yes. That is obvious.

[legal_eagle]

Okay. So. Happy New Year, then, lots of happy returns, blah blah blah. That's it.

[deadelfwalking]

Ridiculous.

[legal_eagle]

[More sharply:]

What.

[deadelfwalking]

What was the point of this meaningless exercise? You feel no true remorse. You are a case, Ms. Karimov, of someone who hides behind the illusion of speaking plainly.

[legal_eagle]

For fuck's...I acted badly. Where I come from, if you act like a shitheel, you acknowledge that you were a shitheel, and you apologize for shitheeling. Typically there's no subsequent psychoanalysis session.

[deadelfwalking]

[he scowls.]

As you like.

[legal_eagle]

Fantastic. Have a nice afterlife.

[deadelfwalking]

[sharply; agonized:]

There is nothing nice about it. Nothing.

[he grinds his teeth; spits.]

I will have no more to do with Ashraf. Not so long as he spends his time with someone as cruel and honorless as you.

[legal_eagle]

Oh, for fuck's -

[She bites down on her exclamation, finally spitting:]

Feed me a fucking script. Tell me what the fuck I should say to avoid inflicting your so-fucking-noble soul with base fucking suffering.

[deadelfwalking]

There is nothing you can say, because it would have no truth to it. There was no thought behind this. There was no reflection.

[he growls into the tablet.]

You did not even care to speak in person.

[legal_eagle]

What, you want to meet up? Will that convince you? For fuck's sake, I don't - We had a disagreement that I mishandled. People have disagreements. There's nothing wrong with that. And now I'm apologizing for the mishandling. I really don't see why it's necessary to...rend your garments and wail about cruelty when there were just some badly-chosen words spilled and then mopped up.

[deadelfwalking]

We did not have a disagreement. You threatened me. You mock my condition, then and now. I have committed no crime against you, and yet you continue with this disrespect.

[he rakes his hand down the side of his face, drawing blood. he sounds a little unbalanced.]

I realize that it means nothing to you. It does not need to. But you could, at the very least, keep yourself from sneering at something that you don't bloody understand!

[legal_eagle]

I wasn't mocking anything. I was trying to be accurate.

[deadelfwalking]

[that just gets a rough, strangled growl of incredulous rage. there's the sound of something heavy -- like a hammer -- striking a wood floor, and then he's hung up.]

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[legal_eagle]

Look, "Have a nice life" is a thing you say when you're not going to be speaking with a person again. And I was trying to edit it for accuracy. Most people would appreciate that.